Single Mom Doin' It: I hope this works cause I have no ideal of what I'...

Single Mom Doin' It: I hope this works cause I have no ideal of what I'...: "I hope this works cause I have no ideal of what I'm doing. Ok I found something new in this page on how I can post yea!!!!!"
I'm sad know :( I don't know how to get back to my little pencil I found last time to write with. Who would've thought blogging could be such a hassle!
But since I am here I guess I can let off a little steam...... I am starting to get rather upset about how my schooling isn't going in the direction I want it to be going. I just want to kick myself everytime I look at one of my books or my current grades. My grades aren't horrible but they also aren't wher I know they should be. Okay let me go back a little so I can unconfuse you.! This is my first time ever taking on line classes and I've been out of school for almost twenty years. This is my fourth term at Kaplan University, I was an A student and now I may be a B to C average (so hurtful). But I must say that I am proud of myself for making it this far. My last term was the worst term ever. The second week into the term my dad was diagnosised with prostate cancer, after undergoing surgery to remove the cancer things only got worst for him and my family. By late May early July the cancer had taken over my dads whole body. From the time my dad told us he had cancer and how agressive the cancer was that he was dealing with, my sister and her three children, stepmom, stepsister and her so, stepbrother, and me and my three children were there by his side. God was holding my sister and I in the palm of his hand and seen us through the roughtest. With our children still in school and our crazy work schedules we were still by his side daily. When I say crazy schedules I mean crazy. I have to be up at 430 a.m. to get ready for work (530 a.m. to 130 p.m.), children out of school at 330p.m. and 400 p.m till 12 midnight maybe 100 a.m. I was by my fathers bedside. Man it was the hardest thing in life to ever watch, someone who gave you life slowly let go of theirs day by day minute by minute. By mid July my dad lost the battle :...( To make it all even harder we buried him the day before my oldest daughter (his first grandbaby) birthday. Going through this was my breaking point, it almost pushed me to not wanting to finish school. But I had Professors and a couselor that was so understanding and helpful that encouraged me to finish my education. They also reittereated to me how important it was to me and my dad for me to finish. So, with all that being said here I am today venting in a blog, but yet still in school (yea me!!!!!) Now my goal is to get back to being an A student not just for myself but for my dad and children! Okay ya'll I'm going to end this blog here for now, and my next blog will be more upbeat, promise!!!!!!!
Ok, I found my little pencil that allows me to write on my board but now I can't figure out to get to another page to add a different posting. So, while I am able to write on my page I going to talk a little!
This time I'm stressed out with trying to stay above water with my two classes in which I had papers due in both at the same time. In doing two papers at once I so pray that my work don't run together as one paper titled " Prostate Cancer in the Digestive System" . Boy would that be a paper that would cause a lot of arguements LOL. But with a little more concentration on one paper at a time I will be okay, and hope to get a good grade on each. But I do hope all of you do good on your papers! Chat later...........